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Chapter 4

By four o’clock the next afternoon, the house had become a machine that ran on female exhaustion.

My aunts moved in and out of the kitchen with covered dishes, arguing about salt. My mother kept checking the front window for early arrivals. I stood over the stove with my hair twisted into a knot, stirring haleem until my shoulder ached. The biryani had reached the stage where timing mattered. Rice half-cooked. Meat tender. Saffron milk ready. Fried onions cooling in a wide steel tray.

Dadi’s door stayed closed.

I had knocked twice. The first time she told me she was resting. The second time she asked what color my outfit was. When I said navy, she said good, like she had been waiting for me to choose the correct answer.

At five-fifteen, I carried a bowl of raita to the dining room and saw the seating chart taped discreetly to the side of the buffet.

My mother had written the names in neat black ink.

Zain sat at the head.

My father to his right.

Mr. Qureshi, Zain’s boss, to his left.

Uncles, cousins, guests from work, two neighbors, and three men I did not recognize filled the rest.

My name was not there.

Dadi’s name was not there either.

For a moment, I simply stood there with the cold bowl in both hands.

I should have expected it. I did expect it. But expectation does not always protect you from the sting. Sometimes it just lets you recognize the knife before it goes in.

My aunt Farah came up beside me. “Put that on the table, beta.”

“Where are Dadi and I sitting?”

Her mouth tightened. “Don’t make trouble.”

The bowl felt slippery in my hands. “That is not an answer.”

She looked toward the kitchen. “Your mother has enough stress.”

“Apparently not enough chairs.”

Aunt Farah’s eyes flashed. “You live alone too long. You forget how families work.”

“No,” I said quietly. “I remember exactly how this one works.”

Before she could respond, the doorbell rang.

Everything accelerated.

Guests poured in wearing cologne, wool coats, polished shoes. The foyer filled with greetings, laughter, and the damp smell of November air. My mother became radiant, her smile widening, her voice sweetening. My father shook hands. Zain clapped men on the shoulder and accepted congratulations with fake humility.

I stayed in the kitchen.

At five-forty, I went to Dadi’s room.

She was sitting on the edge of her bed in a pale gold outfit I had never seen before. Her dupatta was pinned carefully. Her small pearl earrings trembled as she turned her head. On the dresser sat the green tin, locked again.

She looked so hopeful that it hurt to breathe.

“Are they ready?” she asked.

The hallway behind me roared with male laughter.

I stepped inside and closed the door halfway. “Dadi, did Mom tell you where you’re sitting?”

Her eyes moved away from mine.

That was answer enough.

“She said it will be too crowded,” Dadi said after a moment. “She said I will be more comfortable here.”

“Are you more comfortable here?”

She smoothed her dupatta over her knees. Her fingers were thin, the knuckles swollen. “Comfortable is not the same as wanted.”

Something inside me shifted.

Not broke. Breaking suggests suddenness.

This was more like a final bolt sliding into place.

I knelt in front of her. “Do you want to come with me tonight?”

She looked down at me. “Where?”

“Far.”

For the first time all day, her eyes sharpened. “How far?”

I thought of the two seats on the plane. The hotel room I had changed from one king bed to two doubles at midnight the week before. The email confirmation sitting unopened because opening it would make the plan real.

“Hawaii,” I said.

Dadi stared at me.

Then she laughed once, softly, like a match striking.

“Your mother will faint.”

“Probably not. She hates giving people the satisfaction.”

Dadi’s smile faded. “Leilu, I am old.”

“You’re not luggage. You can decide.”

She looked toward the window. Outside, the last light of the day lay flat over my parents’ fenced backyard. When I was a child, Dadi used to grow mint along that fence until my mother replaced the garden with stone pavers because they looked cleaner.

“Will there be ocean?” she asked.

“Yes.”

“Big ocean?”

“The biggest I can afford.”

Her chin trembled.

Then someone pounded on the kitchen door down the hall.

“Leila!” Zain yelled. “People are waiting!”

Dadi’s face closed again, habit moving faster than hope.

I stood.

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“Let them wait,” I said.

And when I walked back toward the kitchen, my mother was already coming for me.

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