part 2

At first, I let her handle the decorations.
Then the meal list.
Then the cabin schedule.
Then the group text, where my name slowly changed from Mom to Linda, and then from Linda to we’ll let you know.
This year, I arrived Friday afternoon with my canvas overnight bag, a cooler of peach cobbler, and Frank’s old tackle box because my grandson Mason had asked me to show him how to tie the knot his grandpa used.
The driveway was already packed.
Jessica’s parents were there.
Her sister’s family was there.
Two couples I barely knew were there.
I saw my own family through the screen door, laughing in the kitchen beneath the string lights I had hung with Frank twenty summers ago.
Eric met me on the porch before I could step inside.
“Mom,” he said quietly, “we had a little mix-up with sleeping arrangements.”
Jessica appeared behind him, holding a plastic cup and wearing that soft, careful smile.
“It’s just so crowded, Linda. We thought you’d be more comfortable at the Lakeside Motor Inn.”
I looked past her at the couch where her brother’s teenage son had already thrown his backpack.
“There’s no room for me?”
Eric rubbed the back of his neck.
“It’s just one weekend.”
One weekend.
At my cabin.
With my boat tied to my slip.
With my name still on every bill they had stopped asking about.
I was standing there with peach cobbler melting in the cooler when Mason came down the steps, face red with shame.
“Grandma, I didn’t know,” he whispered.
Before I could answer, a white marina golf cart rolled up the drive.
Tom Alvarez, the manager from Cedar Bend Marina, stepped out with a clipboard under his arm.
“Mrs. Dawson,” he called. “Sorry to bother you, but I need your signature before anyone takes the pontoon out.”
Jessica’s smile tightened.
Eric went still.
Tom checked his paper.
“Also, do you want to leave Eric Dawson listed as authorized operator, or should I remove that access today?”
The porch did not breathe.
And for the first time all weekend, every person waiting to use my cabin started looking at me like they had finally remembered whose lake keys were in my purse.
The cabin had been Frank’s idea.
Most of the best and worst ideas in our marriage belonged to Frank.
He found the place in a newspaper ad in 1996, circled it with a red pen, and laid the paper beside my coffee mug like a man leaving evidence of his own foolishness.
“Lake cabin,” he said.
“We have a mortgage.”
“Small lake cabin.”
“We have two kids.”
“Character-building.”
“We have one bathroom at home that barely works.”
“This one has two.”
“It has brown siding.”
“It has potential.”
Potential is what husbands say when they know their wives are about to see a water stain.
But Frank loved Table Rock Lake. He loved the way the morning fog lifted off the water, the sound of boat motors carrying across coves, the old men at the marina who could discuss fishing conditions for forty minutes without landing on a point.
Our kids were young then.
Eric was nine.
His sister, Karen, was twelve.
Money was tight, but not impossible. Frank worked maintenance at a school district. I worked in the office of a feed supplier in Springfield. We did not have much, but we knew how to stretch things until they squeaked.
The cabin was ugly when we bought it.
Ugly in a lovable way.
The porch sagged.
The screen door snapped shut loud enough to scare birds.
The kitchen cabinets were two different shades of tired.
The old dock looked like it had been built by men with confidence but no level.
Frank walked through it like a king in a palace.
“Linda,” he said, standing in the living room, “think of the summers.”
I did.
I thought of wet towels over railings.
Hot dogs on the grill.
Kids catching fireflies.
Birthday cakes leaning in the humidity.
Frank teaching Eric to steer the pontoon with one hand and fear God with the other.
Karen reading on the porch swing and pretending not to listen to us.
Grandchildren someday.
I saw all of that before it existed.
So we bought the place.
The first few summers were messy and glorious.
We slept on mismatched mattresses.
The kids fought over the loft.
Frank fixed the dock, then fixed what he fixed because the first fix floated wrong.
I learned that lake kitchens require extra paper towels, extra bug spray, and patience with sand in places sand has no business being.
The pontoon came later.
Used.
Sun-faded.
May you like
Reliable enough if Frank was the one listening to the motor.
He named her Maggie Pearl after his mother and my aunt, which pleased nobody but him.