Chapter 21 - Gloria’s apology

Gloria’s first apology was exactly what I expected.
“I’m sorry you misunderstood my discipline.”
No.
Then:
“I’m sorry Lizzy was frightened.”
Passive.
No.
Then:
“I’m sorry one mistake erased everything I did for her.”
Also no.
Two years after the storm, a letter arrived through Rebecca.
Four pages.
I nearly did not read it.
First line:
“I locked Lizzy in the storage room.”
I continued.
“I called it a quiet room because that sounded better than closet.”
There.
“I knew she hated it.”
There.
“I believed that was why it worked.”
My hands went cold.
Then:
“I thought if crying stopped, the behavior had improved. I did not ask whether she stopped because she was calm or because she was afraid.”
That was the center.
She continued:
“On the storm night, she cried for Rachel and refused dinner. I was angry because I had spent almost two years feeling that nothing I did could make her stop missing her mother.”
Painful.
Honest.
“I treated her grief as rejection of me.”
There.
“I put her in the room because I wanted control before I left for dinner.”
Then:
“I told myself Walt would let her out. I did not ask him because part of me wanted her to remain until she stopped.”
I stopped.
Cried.
Then read the financial paragraph.
“I also used money meant for Lizzy for things that were mine. I told myself caring for her entitled me to reimbursements I never formally requested. That was wrong.”
No blame on Walt.
Then:
“Walt made his own choices.”
Good.
Finally:
“I am sorry I made a grieving child prove obedience before she could receive comfort.”
That sentence mattered.
I did not send it to Lizzy.
She was eight.
Not her burden yet.
I replied:
May you like
“I received your letter. Thank you for being specific.”
Nothing else.