Chapter 1 - ONE PINK SOCKMy name is Rachel Mercer.
I was thirty-three years old the night I slapped an eight-year-old child at my in-laws’ dinner table.
That sentence is ugly.
It should be.
There are parts of that night I can defend.
Taking Nina out of the house.
Refusing to let Sylvia humiliate her.
Refusing to pretend Charles’s cruelty was a joke.
The slap was not one of them.
But before I understood what I had done, I had to understand what they had done to my daughter.
The Mercers’ dining room looked like wealth because Charles and Sylvia had spent thirty years learning how to make things look expensive.
Crystal glasses.
Polished walnut table.
Cream-colored walls.
A chandelier Sylvia once told me came from a hotel auction in Charleston.
Silver serving dishes.
A roast arranged in the center as though somebody from a magazine might arrive to photograph dinner.
Eight place settings.
Three wines open.
Even the cloth napkins had monograms.
Nina had eaten perhaps four bites.
She had gone upstairs because Sylvia told the girls to change before dessert.
Vivian had brought a sparkly lavender dress.
Nina had a yellow cotton dress folded in the guest-room dresser.
Nothing expensive.
Twenty-nine dollars when I bought it.
Little white flowers along the hem.
Andrew had been with us that day.
My husband.
Nina’s father.
Dead eleven months.
He had picked the yellow one from three dresses because he said it made Nina look like summer.
She loved it partly because he had loved it.
I was talking to Monique when Nina returned.
Barefoot.
Striped T-shirt.
Dark leggings.
One pink sock twisted inside her hand.
Her face had gone blotchy from trying not to cry.
“Mom... where are my clothes?”
I pushed my chair back.
“What?”
She looked toward Sylvia.
Then Charles.
I dropped to my knees.
“Which clothes, darling?”
“All of them.”
Her lips trembled.
“My yellow dress. My pajamas. My school sweatshirt.”
I looked over her shoulder.
“Where are your shoes?”
Nina squeezed the sock.
Sylvia raised her wineglass.
Calmly.
“Those cheap outfits. We threw them away.”
For a second I genuinely believed I had misunderstood.
“You did what?”
Sylvia took a sip.
“I told you weeks ago that child needs a proper wardrobe when she stays here.”
“Her wardrobe is proper.”
“She dresses like someone whose mother has given up.”
Something moved inside my chest.
“What exactly did you throw away?”
“The things in the guest-room drawers.”
“My daughter’s clothes.”
“Rachel, they were embarrassing.”
Nina’s fingers closed around my sleeve.
Charles leaned back.
He had always possessed the particular smile of a man who believed having enough money made every insult observational rather than cruel.
“That yellow dress just made her look even more destitute.”
My head turned toward him.
“What did you say?”
“It did.”
Vivian sat beside Monique.
Eight years old.
Sparkly dress.
Glittery shoes swinging above the floor.
She looked directly at Nina.
Then smiled.
“Cheap clothes suit her perfectly.”
Monique’s face changed.
“Vivian—”
I stood.
Then my hand moved.
One sharp slap.
Vivian’s head turned.
The dining room became absolutely silent.
Her cheek reddened.
Her eyes widened.
I heard Nina gasp.
I heard Monique say my name.
“Rachel.”
I stared at Vivian.
“You cruel people.”
Not child.
People.
Because in that instant I saw the table as one organism.
Sylvia.
Charles.
Their contempt.
Monique’s silence.
Vivian repeating what she had learned.
And I made an eight-year-old responsible for the atmosphere adults had built around her.
I did not understand that fully yet.
All I understood was that Nina was crying.
I grabbed her coat from the hall.
She had no shoes.
I carried her because the front steps were cold stone.
At the doorway, I turned back.
Everyone remained where I had left them.
Sylvia stunned.
Charles no longer smiling.
Monique with one arm around Vivian.
I took my phone from my purse.
Nina clung around my neck.
My voice had become very calm.
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“Enjoy your meal. In two weeks, you’ll understand the price you have to pay for what you’ve just done.”
Then I walked out.
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