Chapter 15 - BARBARA’S HISTORY

Barbara’s obsession with birth had a history.
Not a secret dead baby.
Something quieter.
Richard was born by emergency cesarean after a long labor.
Barbara had felt powerless.
Her husband—Richard’s father—signed consent when she was sedated after an emergency.
Medical practice was different then.
She described the birth for decades as:
“They took him out of me.”
She never processed it.
Instead she built an identity around what she believed should have happened.
Natural birth.
Home.
Family.
No doctors “taking over.”
When I became pregnant with twins, she said:
“This is your chance to do it right.”
My chance.
For her old wound.
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That explained.
Did not excuse.